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Name: Victor
Birthday: 7/17/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Heep Hop
Expertise: Partying at the library.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
3/14/2003
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| For some reason being in SF I don't write as much as I would like to...anyway, once again I am going to try to post at least once a week here. The following is what I have written in the past...couple months. And they dont lead in to one another at all, its just a random smattering of everything, enjoy...or don't...
she looks best when she's simply dressed
blue jeans, a pair of sandals, little silver on her neck
her light green top flows loosely from her chest
her lips are the ones i want mine to caress
she got a pretty face with big brown eyes
and they always seem to be overflowing with life
and i want that so i tell her that
but she answers back that she thinks im a mac
but im not girl and please believe that
havent been involved for more than four years
they're whole lotta headache and a whole lotta tears
and yes i guess there were some good times too
but the bad outwieghed 'em by more than a few
and now i wanna play that game with you
you look like you could make me smile
and ill do the same for you at least for a while
she looks back and shes liking my game
i never knew i had it but im into this dame
so i step forth and im feelin unashamed
and i asked her girl whats your name
look at me and then take a look at you
its amazing to see what we've been through
because we're so different in so many ways
how we live ours lives and what makes our days
for you its a live band
but for me its something you'll never understand
you want me to promise more than i can keep
that i'll always be there when you're in need
and as much as i wish that i could be
we've got to look forward into reality
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| I have been misled in this life. Since the day I was born movies, TV, books, and even other people have had me believe that our modern lives are supposed to be pleasurable. I say modern because one: I do believe we were created, and two: I believe that when we were created, we were created to live in a paradise.
But no matter what you believe you should understand what I am getting at. When things go wrong, we think something is wrong. When we wake up to another day and don't feel happy about it, something is wrong. When things are going well, our minds drift onto another aspect of our lives that we need to better,something is wrong.
It sucks,I know, and somewhere in my mind I feel like life shouldn't be like this. I understand that when things go wrong, something feels wrong, understandable. But since when did the human race wake up to each day with a smile on their faces? And when was there a time where we honestly had nothing to worry about? These breaks we get are just that, breaks. The spring breaks, ones that have passed, ones we are on, and the ones coming up: sure we may not think about stuff for a while. But eventually our minds drift off to how we did on those damn tests before we left for break. Counting down the days until we return to school.Thinking about what the hell we are going to do next quarter or the rest of the semester, maybe even both. Hell, I don't even know what I am going to do over break, which is next week, and it is bugging me.
I am not conveying what I am feeling very well at all (unlike my Kanye West post =P). But the bottom line is this: Maybe, just maybe, modern life is flawed. No shit Sherlock, I know you know that. But I will readily admit I still look for that perfection I'm never going to find. I'm not going to say I know you but I think a lot of us do it too. And maybe...ignorance is bliss.
Oh, BTW, I realize is it no longer relatively early. It took we a while to write and rewrite this several times until, just like life: whatever, I am never going to get it right, so its good enough.
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| When Kanye West first came out I loved him for making songs explicit
about his faith ["Jesus Walks"] and his insecurities ["All Falls
Down"]. Both these subjects were against mainstream lifestyles and
cocky attitudes. Yet, against all odds, he became wildly popular and
even more, those songs made it to the radio. This was all in line with
his strong association with Common and Lupe Fiasco, two artists which I
feel have made it to the mainstream despite the counter mainstream
subject matter of many of their songs ["Dumb It Down" by Lupe is the
perfect example]. Furthermore, he was more formally educated than the
average rap artist with some college under his belt. TIME magazine only
confirmed my suspicions that Kanye West would have a positive impact on
the rap scene when they printed a cover story about him: "Hip-Hop's
Class Act".
But after "The College Dropout" his sophomore and junior albums made me
question my initial impression of him. He seemed to have become the
misogynistic, womanizing, and boastful rap artist that we have become
accustomed to. It would be unfair to say that all his songs have
degraded, songs like "Diamonds From Sierra Leone" are reminiscent of
his break out charm.
But his actions in the media iced it for me. His comments on Bush
during the Hurricane Katrina Fundraiser, his childish temper tantrums
when he didn't win a MTV Award, and his ignorant claims that he should
be a character in The Bible shows that he truly has no shame. All in
all, I had high hopes for Kanye West's career and yes he has made it
big, but as cliche as it sounds, he has also lost himself along the way
[assuming who he was when he broke out was the real him]. I am saying I
feel let down. In my mind, he has without question become one of the
strongest arguments for those who attack rap.
This is not to say I don't enjoy his music, he is an amazing rapper and
producer. Songs like "Stronger" truly demonstrate his eclectic
production styles that actually sound not just good but great.
My point is yes I AM a hater when it comes to Kanye West, I will readily admit that, but I feel like I got taken for a ride. | | |
| For a guy who has not had a whole lot to overcome in life I sure do bitch about it a lot.
And the thing is most of the things I do have to overcome are because I messed up in the first place. So about now everyone knows that I am trying to get into nursing school but I am having problems, but truth be told, these problems are not that nursing schools are impacted, not that I couldn't get my classes at DA, although it is what I like to tell people when they ask me if I am graduating this year like the majority of people who entered college 4 years ago are doing. Here is the problem: I thought I had learned my lesson by staying home and going to a Community College while most of my friends ventured off to 4 years (because it sucked) but in reality had not.
Sure the first 2 quarters were all fun and games, a joke compared to school work/effort at Monta Vista. But as things got harder I reverted to old ways, drown it out with things that don't do anything for me but hold me back. I think ostriches are retarded for sticking their head in the sand while my ass is way up in the air and my ears filling up with little grains of sand that I will spend days clearing out with Q-tips.
Oh my god...I just reread the title of this entry and...I'm like Kanye West, and not the good way. I am a whiny little bitch.
In any case I need to get my act together and stop lying. I screwed up in classes and did not do as well as I should have. I should have looked at requirements for nursing long before I had to actually apply. I should be looking for nursing schools that will accept students with lower grades. I would be applying to SJSU nursing if my grades qualified.
Dammit, get over yourself, Victor.
If you are fooling anyone, shame on you.
If you are fooling yourself, you're an idiot.
A huge one.
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| he was a child born outta wedlock
and he cant seem to get outta life's headlock
he keeps on fishin for chance and circumstances
figurin out whether he should dream with his own hands
not knowin whether he was intentional or not
if he was created with purpose then purpose he's got
but if made without purpose then all purpose is lost
but you can't lose something you never had
yet he keeps on keepin on because he is everlast
he's nothing if not a dreamer and he dreams big
in a infinite pond but he's a little fish
tryin to make waves as he swims through the water
but slowly finds he doesn't, he makes nada
but he keeps on doin what he loves to do
keeps on goin through what he needs to
he's determined on becoming what he dreamed as a kid
because he's grown up now and he's lost it
the ability to dream and to be irrantional
stuck with reality and being one who's practical
yet he keeps on kickin and keeps on strugglin
and society finds his resistance puzzlin
but as they live their lives they drop subtle hints
that they envy him and his bold intentions
and these words right here are purely fiction
but I keep on pressin on because I'm on a mission
this is what I do, this is what I love, this is my addiction
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